So I’ve been plugging myself more frequently, and last night, S told me to do so after dinner. I went up to put it in, and came back down. It slipped out as I was preparing ice cream, so I had to go back and put it in. I think it may have been the amount of lube I used, or maybe I put it in too easily, I’m not sure. Anyway, I seem to be getting used to plugging myself at least once a week, so maybe I should go up to twice a week. Also, I think my average time for keeping it in has been around two hours.
Today marks three months with the PA. I only had one out of the ordinary moment, where I headed to the restroom to pee. I looked down to see that the piercing happened to move most of the way through the urethra and wrapped itself around the head of the cock. The foreskin protected it, but it was a bit of a scare because I thought it had made its way out completely.
Going back to last night; I must have had some hot and heavy dream last night, because I woke up with the hardest erection I had in a while. I bet it mostly has to do with my current streak without an orgasm, but I had noticed when I went to pee that I had something dried up, like a bit of precum, around the foreskin. I guess not having a release since 12/15/19 will do that to you.
Sadly, I am working both jobs today, so I won’t get home until 10. As far as I know, S and I didn’t have any plans, but I would rather stay home with Her and spend the night together than work a Friday night at the liquor store. You would think management would schedule the employees with no plans, no relationships, etc., for tonight. Oh well. If I’m on register tonight, EVERYONE had better have their IDs on them.
Since the start of the new year, I have been making it a goal to plug myself more frequently. There was a long period there where I hadn’t used my butt plug and I struggled to get it in. I think there were a few things I wasn’t doing right: not enough lube on either the plug or in my ass; not relaxing enough for an easy insert; with it being a long time between uses, my ass wasn’t adapting well; and not douching beforehand a few of those times. This year, I’ve been fixing all the areas where I wasn’t doing it right, and it seems to be working well for me. It still takes a couple minutes to ease it in, and still haven’t been able to slide it in on the first attempt, that’s my main goal. Another great plus is I have been able to keep it in place for a couple hours! I did housework and other things while keeping it in, so I think I might finally be getting used to it. Maybe I could work it up to more than one day a week of being plugged. Perhaps a part of our nightly ritual of me being collared, I could either put it in after I undress or after dinner.
Please excuse the blurriness, but I thought I’d take a picture of my face before I shave. I have many grey hairs in my beard, and I noticed that before I regularly started shaving. I’d love to know how many greys are on my head, but I don’t have a lot of hair on my head anymore (which is why I shave it off regularly). This is three or four days worth of growth.
So, today marks the first six weeks with the piercing. I have no issues to report with it, but S informed me today would be the day we go in for a checkup. Since I haven’t had any issues, She said She doesn’t see any point in going unless I had questions. I showed interest in possibly going up a gauge size, but S prefers I don’t go up a size, so I am doing what She suggests, because it is Her cock. I think, with that being said, I don’t know what else I could do with the piercing. I don’t think any other jewelry would interest me for that location. I still have interest in going up a gauge for my nipples, but I don’t think that would be possible with the right nipple, even though they’re both fully healed now.
I had a strange dream that I did size up on my PA, but it was obnoxiously large- like the thickness of a hand rail on a bus or subway. I don’t get how that would even work, but that would be more like a hentai inspired piercing.
Well, as S has pointed out to me, the longer I go without release, the more romantic and sexual I get. I’m really believing it, but there have been many factors that kept me on my current run- working many shifts in a row, the healing process for the PA, and the dog. This morning, however, I had the option to continue sleeping in after letting out the dog for his morning run in the yard, and I chose instead to engage in some sexual activity. I saw S’ breasts on display, and missed them in my mouth, I just went for it. She responded by stroking and teasing Her cock, squeezing and massaging Her balls. It felt so good feeling Her hand touch me there. She pinched and teased my nipples as well- since they’re fully healed, it felt great to have some nipple play. S reached for a condom after feeling that I was hard enough. I was ordered to hold the condom at the base so She could get me in. Once She was on top, She fucked me good. I didn’t feel any pain at all. The only feeling I had was being inside Her, and the throbbing of the head from being hard. She came, and kept going to make me cum, I wanted to feel it. I never did feel it, so I was ordered to hold the condom as She got off me. I removed the condom and saw that there was nothing in it, so I continue on with no release. I was happy She had an orgasm though, and I asked Her if She felt the piercing and She said “Oh yes, definitely,” with enthusiasm.
I was allowed to sleep a little more, but couldn’t sleep for much longer. I thought about it in bed, maybe I should have sex with a condom more often- I can’t recall ever having an orgasm with one on, it could be an option in the orgasm denial period. I am curious, though, knowing how it will feel without the condom.
Added note: one thing I like about the PA, is then I move the ring around, the beady end that comes out the urethra side feels pretty amazing when I get it in the tip of the urethra. If I wasn’t sure if I would enjoy sounding or not, I think this may have verified I might enjoy it, whenever we get to that activity.
I went to see Rammstein at the Worcester Palladium with my dad and my friend Mike. This was the show I went to, and my friend had told me and shown me what they were like live. The act they got arrested for was in the video (from what I remember) and they did it there, as well as New Hampshire a couple years later. I always recommend people see them if they ever get the chance.
This post will be all over the place.
I’m most grateful for taking the chance and messaging S on OKCupid three years ago. I rarely mention how much She means to me, and how different my life is, so much for the better. I think so many opportunities had come and gone, somewhere along the way, I lost the ability to verbally express my love for someone. When you’re in a long-term relationship that ends out of nowhere, a part of you just kind of stops for a moment and says “you’re not in a relationship, focus on you until you’re in a good place, then try again.” S was my last hope at this opportunity. I was on the verge of deleting all my dating app profiles if this didn’t work out. Luckily, I was worthy of Her love. I have my own ways of showing my love for someone, and in this case, since being submissive was necessary, I may have hit the jackpot. She said I would have to shave. I shaved before our next date. I have slowly learned some tasks around the house, but I’m getting there. I smile when I think of Her. Her beautiful eyes and smile. Her intellect, and punny personality. Her love of nature, and kink, and Her dominance over me, but also how encouraging She has been to me with helping me find my way submissively, sexually, and how She’s helped me. And how could I forget how amazing of a cook and baker She is? I’m forever grateful to be a part of Her life. Women like S had always been imaginary to me, like you’d only read about them in fictional tales, erotica stories, or in films. She is everything to me and I will continue to give my heart and soul to her. I’m not the best there is, but I strive to be, and I’m grateful for the amount of patience she has had for me over the years. I needed to say this because I don’t say it enough. I don’t have any good reason why, I guess I’m just generally pretty quiet.
I made a promise that I was going to provide pictures of the piercing fully healed. I took some at really weird angles, but you can see it.
I had to do some serious editing to the second picture, I couldn’t get the angle or lighting quite right.
Yesterday it slipped my mind that it’s been a month with the PA. There hasn’t been much to report about. The bleeding was done in three or four days, the pain died down after a couple weeks. I’ve adapted well with it- most of the time I don’t even realize it’s there. I know it’s there, but it’s not bothersome. I don’t have a picture yet, maybe I’ll post them separately.
The first of next month it was suggested that we go back in for a checkup (six week mark), see how it’s healed, if I need a different ring, size change, etc. I like the one I have, and I’m open to going up another gauge, but I’m not going to go too far with gauge size. Of course, I would be looking into permission from S for that.